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| Sometimes a philosopher gets sleepy. The intensity of his gaze wavers, and it ceases to circumscribe conceptual territories or carve out logical pathways. Perhaps, ala Descartes’ dream, the books piled on his desk begin to disappear and pop up elsewhere; or, it may be, ala Foucault’s nightmare, that the single text before him simply clouds over and vanishes. When the eyes of a philosopher dim, his eyelids often flutter. They beat unevenly or clap erratically. They shudder, and vision itself begins to shiver. Like a Sunday jaunt taken Monday morning or the flight patterns of a winded butterfly, a philosopher’s gaze glazes over and passes hither and thither, scuttling at one moment across the dusty crevice of his lamp shade and at another between the crumpled contours of his radiator – transitive, interstitial. It was at just such a moment that this philosopher, dilly-dallying a bit, as is his wont, got doubly distracted, and, rather than daydream about daydreams, which he would otherwise have done, he got curious about curiosities. | | |
| The late-day snow was dirty in Dominic's parking lot, stirred up by car tires - like a vat of chocolate cake batter, well-beaten. I could hear the crunch of sugar crystals under my boot. | | |
| 'You know Melissa, right?' 'I've met her ... there's something hard around her eyes.' 'Yah, well. She's gone through some pretty awful shit. But what do you mean hard?' 'Mmm. You know those condemned buildings - with the wood slats nailed across the windows? The slats never cover the windows entirely; it's simply a gesture. That's what her eyes looked like.' | | |
| I heard, the other day, the story of a boy, living in the hills of northern Virginia. Summer nights, the fat rain came clambering down on the tin roof above his head. In the fall, however, the pecan tree, heavy with nuts, bent low over his house. And, when it rained, the raindrops plucked the pecans from the sky and chased them to the tin sheets below. Yes, it was the story of a boy, one autumn night, under pecan rain. | | |
| The next day, well before dawn, I packed a dark coffee, placed a single cigarette in my left breast pocket, and traipsed jauntily up Haverford Avenue, keen for her company. To my surprise, she was already awake and chattering. Ah, the world is right again. Amusing herself with the circus in her mouth, she stretched herself free of the sheets. My rising chuckle caught itself on the horizon, where the smallest spot of pink could be seen right where sea and sky meet. I blushed. Waves above and below it grew in intensity, while the chatter at her lips turned to murmurs in her throat. Spellbound, I watched as shards of pink and a blinding gold spread across her belly and thighs, guilding the swollen sea up into the puckered sky. She came, spraying in my face. The world slowly yellowed. Her eyes were still obscured by a grey coverlet when I tore myself from the door. I glanced back beneath Tunbridge Drive to see her bashfully smiling at me. I wondered, as I climbed the curb, at what moment I would have taken a snapshot. The idea seemed ludicrous to me, as if I were asking myself for my favorite line of poetry. I like words and waves endlessly, the way they tumble over each other, cutting one off only to finish another. So there’s not a slice of her I want to freeze and take with me; I want to live all of her, crash and canter. At that moment, I heard crumbling old 5510 Springfield speak. He’d been seeing her for decades and now quietly breathed, ‘That, my son, is why you need never be afraid of forever.’ | | |
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